No place like home
The most turmoil with the kids usually strikes toward the end of the week.
I don't know if it's because we're all so eager for a weekend that we're ready to pounce. Well, honestly, some among us - I'm not naming names - do actually pounce.
But it's usually an, "It was an accident," sort of pounce that happens when one of them jumps off the couch and oddly enough, lands on one of her sisters. She didn't really mean it, mind you.
Or maybe it's because of this new routine of buses and schools and after-school conversations that begin with, "How was school today?" and end hours later as I finally squeeze something, anything out of one of my 3-year-olds.
"We sat like this, criss-cross applesauce," she'll tell me just before bed. "Him go to time-out."
And as many conversations as I've had throughout my life - conversations about politics, the meaning of life, why a frog pees when you hold it in your hand - none have been quite as challenging.
Because one of my girls especially, shares only when she feels like sharing. And it's usually just bits and pieces.
So when she finally talks, I listen.
I don't always understand what she's trying to tell me, but I want her to know that I'm always trying.
And so it goes throughout the week, this new routine.
As much as they all seem to like school, it's not unusual for at least one or two of my kids to get upset afterwards about the simplest of things, everything or nothing at all, depending on how you look at it.
Sometimes, all it takes is a crooked Velcro strap on a shoe and it's all downhill.
So was the case on a recent Friday night when my oldest packed a bag and told me she was going. She wasn't sure where, just somewhere else.
I don't know exactly what set her off, perhaps the fact that I had turned the volume down on the CD she was blaring.
Hannah or Miley or whatever her name is, was bellowing, "It's the cliiiimmmmb!" so loudly that I could feel my ear drums banging, trying to wiggle their way out of my head and escape.
Some other "dramatic" occurrence or two later, and she had placed a T-shirt, her stuffed animal lamb and an umbrella in a bag. It wasn't raining, but it's always good to be prepared, I suppose.
"Bye everyone," she said, glaring as she paused at the door. Her sisters stared back blankly.
"Are you gonna take a car?" one of the 3-year-olds asked.
"No, my bike," she said.
"Are you gonna go really bye bye?" her other sister responded.
"Yes I am," she mumbled.
"Is mommy gonna be mad?"
"Yes," she said.
I was in the other room, listening, thinking I'd see just how far she'd take it.
So I watched her walk out the front door, bag on shoulder, that umbrella dangling. Minutes later, she came back in through the garage door. I suppose she'd run far enough away for the night.
I greeted her with a hug, told her I was happy she was back, but that I was disappointed in her behavior.
I wish I could share some deep, lesson-learning, "7th Heaven"-like conversation we shared.
She cried, said, "I'm sorry."
She probably didn't understand everything I was trying to tell her. And I probably didn't understand everything she was telling me about why she was so upset.
Still, I was trying. Sometimes, especially on Fridays when I'm mommed out and ready to pack my own umbrella, that's about all I can muster.
At the very least, I'm always trying.










